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[18 Mar 2007|09:09pm] |
Insert generalized teenage angst here.
... Shit. I'm not a teenager anymore.
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Insert angst here?
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| I can't believe it, yo. |
[27 Feb 2007|08:00pm] |
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So, I was going over to the girls' house last night, in an attempt to take it easy, play some FF6 on my ZSNES emulator on my Laptop, and work on a CS project. I should have known better than to assume that I would somehow be able to do this, because it is a simple, and almost trivial thing to do. It's not like I was attempting to run FarCry on my laptop or anything.
So, I get to the house, I flip open the lid on my laptop, and I boot it up. Takes a bit longer than normal to reach my OS selection screen, which was my first sign of worry, then disaster strikes:
"DriveRead,Seekcomplete,Error"
Oh no.
Freaking hell. The drive was ACTUALLY going to have the nerve to crash on me after working successfully since the year began. The testicular fortitude it takes to do such a thing leaves me gaping in awe. I mean, come on, It's not like I was running FarCry, is it?
So, I reboot, thinking that the same thing that happened before would happen. I reboot, and everything boots up normally.
Wrong.
My Ext3 partition is absolutely toasted, meaning my root is toast. I love my old laptop <3. So, I immediately pop in the Gentoo Install disk I left at the girls' house, thinking that it was a minimum install disk, which would let me hop onto the console and immediately get to work. Wrong again. I have a full-fledged install disk, that tries to run everything in Xorg to make it nice and pretty and easy for the world to understand.
Frak me. Cntl + Alt + Backspace.
Xorg closes.
Xorg auto-magically restarts.
Frak, that means gdm is running. So, I run a terminal in X, and use top to find the process. I accidently kill g-P-m instead of g-D-m the first time, which wasn't even an issue as I don't really use a mouse, especially on the laptop, and I needed to attempt to shutdown gdm. Crap, It's running by root. So, I su
"Password:"
Me: "...Shit" *Thinks to himself: Fucking autoscrambling fucking hell ass fucking....*
Since I can't login to root, I have somehow keep shutting down x with, and get top running inbetween gdm x-restarts to kill its pid. After about 5 attempts, I finally got it down. So, I start running e2fsck on my root partitin....
A day later, it is stuck, after scanning all the sectors, requesting me to look at the hundred+ toasted sectors on the drive. So, I decided to force a rewrite on some of them, then realizing that I most likely didn't want to use them anymore, I decided to not rewrite one of them. Sends me back to the shell.
"...Shit"
So I restart e2fsck.
I say yes to all the repairs and replacements.
ls is broken.
So is X
So is /sbin/rc
So is xterm
So is xauth
So is ... my sanity. :D
Me gustan las computadoras, y amo malas cosas.
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| Well |
[31 Jan 2007|05:15am] |
I've decided that reflection is both a positive and a negative attribute to being a human being. It gives you just enough time to realize things you may not have wanted to notice, and sometimes, it does far more.
I've decided that I need to really accomplish work. I need to not sleep tonight to do more. Library that never closes, I love you dearly.
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[03 Oct 2006|03:10pm] |
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Gotta love good nights.
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| Yay for clarity. |
[25 Sep 2006|02:47am] |
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Isn't it wonderful, when one has so much going on, yet lacks all sense of time and space in order to properly handle the situation?
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| Yeah.... |
[18 Sep 2006|12:33am] |
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I absolutely have the shittiest grin on my face right now, and I should probably feel terrible for it, however, I find that for some strange reason, I'm not :).
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| Feelings truly are fickle things |
[30 Aug 2006|02:17am] |
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Its getting early, I can't sleep, and I've got a lovely pounding headache. Due to the lack of musical capablities on my Gentoo box at the moment, I'm sitting here, enjoying the silence.
Perhaps I should be working on the website for my potential job, or even my homework?
Feh, I can't motivate myself this evening.
For some reason, I find myself EXTREMELY worried about falling short this year in college. I have a dire feeling that I will do poorly, and an even more frightening feeling of being considered a dead beat. I am finding a VERY difficult time in finding justification for only 13 credit hours. I feel like I am slacking off, yet strangely I feel overwhelmed by being here.
Feh, I get life is turning for the not so well. Perhaps my friends were right, in the idea of being worried about me. I did make a shit load of colossal decisions in a rather short time span. Not all of it has truly sank in yet. I feel strangely rushed and stressed. The idea of getting anything short of an A in my courses here strikes the fear of God in me.
Why the hell are these things pressuring me so damn much? That's my more pressing concern. That, and trying to figure out if I accidently short-cutted my EE 280 homework. I am deeply worried because I didn't understand problem 1.... Yet solved the others successfully.
...Feh.
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| "Don't let the days go by" |
[16 Aug 2006|01:09am] |
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Iron Maiden - The Number of the Beast |
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Ah, the lethargic bliss of the summer.
This is what I've been awaiting for almost a year now. For every bit of me that desires to enjoy this more, there is an equal part which is begging to return to college. I could blather on about how much things have changed, but there is something that I have come to realize about that, and that is that change is inevitable.
Why are so many people wrapped up in change? Change is something that we should all embrace, because we sure as hell can't hinder or stop it. Even by attempting to prevent change, we are changing. I believe now, with my new-found freedom, that I am finally able to go forth and really start to learn. I haven't had the chance to really learn something for years now, since about my sophomore year in high school, when I learned how to program _right_ for the first time in my life.
After spending a year in speed school, where I learned how to survive, I'm ready for a year at UK, where I can absorb and learn all that I can learn about the things I want to learn about. I'm becoming rather sad at the thought of loathing mathematics because of the time I spent in Speed. Thankfully, I was saved from that fate I believe. Hopefully, with a decent professor this semester, my love for mathematics will be resurrected to its previous glory.
As far as the overall topic of this post, I've not the slightest, but I enjoyed it entirely.
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| Chasing Amy |
[24 Jul 2006|01:01am] |
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Bush - Come Down |
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It's been a rather long time since I've had a chance to post here, nor have I really had the chance to do so because of a very busy semester, and life.
Its interesting how things throw their twists at you, and bend themselves into knots around your very soul and existence...
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| What are you supposed to say? |
[20 Mar 2006|12:16pm] |
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What are you supposed to say when you friend makes one of the worst decisions you can fathom, after years of working through the same problem?
Exactly...
There's nothing you can say.
You just sit and watch.
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| Imagine this |
[06 Mar 2006|12:34am] |
It's been nearly six months since I last updated this journal. Life has become very different now, and my world is much different, in many many ways.
There have been things that I've been forced to changed. and things that I have yet to change. Despite all of that, I have emerged (Ha ha to the Gentoo users) according to source. I have a few more major changes to make in my life, then I will be able to get many important things set straight.
Pray for me people.
Much love,
Eric
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| Today... |
[31 May 2005|12:36am] |
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Today was Ginger's Graduation party, and it t'was quite the time. I met many interesting people from her family and church, as well as ate some lovely food.
Although, my car also broke down today, just as I pulled into her driveway.
My father and I think that the issue lies within the fuel injectors, because it seems that the ECU (Environmental Control Unit) was talking to us in its language of LED flashes and believes that to be such.
Some news in the world, because I havent updated in what feels like centuries...
I graduated! Finally! Been a long road, a very long road.
I've gotten all my basic things for college set and Im about ready to go.
I need to get a nice Power supply for a computer if anyone has one laying around let me know.
And it is off to bed with Eric tonight, for I need to be awake early to start working on my broken down car :/
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[19 May 2005|02:36am] |
Revenge of the Sith....
George Lucas just justified his lacking in the first two episodes....
Im in shock, that was amazing, simply amazing.
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[17 May 2005|12:27am] |
I swear, Anytime I need things no one is around.
No one.
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[10 May 2005|11:13pm] |
Ever had something you wanted to talk about, but you just can't find anyone to ask?
That's how I've been for some time now, and I've got some things dwelling inside that I wish I could get out, but I know that won't happen, and I know that I'm likely making another shout out into the darkness. I have so much pressure that it could break me into a thousand pieces, but I don't know what to do, or what to think anymore.
I'm just depressed.... I'm jus really sad.
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[19 Apr 2005|08:18am] |
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It's Ginger. Eric I want all the problems we have been having to disappear. I know this can not happen without us working on it. I want to do whatever I can to make things better. Baby I am sorry we have been fighting lately. I love you and I will try to make things better. If you want anything specific to change let me know. But honey I love you very much, you mean so much to me. We will work this out. I know we will because we love each other. I love you. Have a great day and stop worrying. I love you Bye.
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| For all the Star Wars nerds... |
[13 Apr 2005|11:59pm] |
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I was playing D20 Star Wars tonight, and I accomplished the impossible. I actually stole two lightsabers off a jedi while he was talking to me.
EAT IT FORCE WHORES!
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| Hey, why not? |
[12 Apr 2005|11:05pm] |
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~What Would You Do If~
I cried:
I asked you to help:
I was becoming suicidal:
I killed myself:
I died from natural causes:
I said I liked you:
I kissed you:
I started smoking:
I stole something:
I was hospitalized:
I ran away from home:
I got in a fight and you were there:
~What Do You Think About My~
Personality:
Eyes:
Face:
Hair:
Clothes:
Voice:
Humor:
Choice of music:
Mannerisms:
Family:
~Would You~
Be my friend:
Tell me the truth, no matter what:
Lie to make me feel better:
Spread rumors about me:
Keep a secret if I told you one:
Loan me some cash:
Hold my hand:
Take a bullet for me:
Keep in touch:
Try and solve my problems:
Love me:
Do me:
1. Who are you?
2. Are we friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. How have I affected you?
5. What do you think of me?
6. What's the fondest memory you have of me?
7. How long do you think we will be friends?
8. Do you love me?
9. Do you have a crush on me?
10. Would you kiss me?
11. Would you hug me?
12. Physically, what stands out?
13. Emotionally, what stands out?
14. Do you wish I was cooler?
15. On a scale of 1-10, how hot am I?
16. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
17. Am I loveable?
18. How long have you known me?
19. Describe me in one word:
20. What was your first impression?
21. Do you still think that way about me now?
22. What do you think my weakness is?
23. Do you think I'll get married?
24. What makes me happy?
25. What makes me sad?
26. What reminds you of me?
27. If you could give me anything what would it be?
28. How well do you know me?
29. When's the last time you saw me?
30. Ever wanted to tell me something but could'nt?
31. Do you think I could kill someone?
32. Are you going to put this on your LiveJournal and see what I say about you?
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| So typical my heart. |
[10 Apr 2005|09:53pm] |
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For as much as I am able to help people, for all the times I seem to have the right thing to say or the right way to go about things, I can't remember but a few times that anyone has been able to help me out anymore.
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